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Sun, Nov. 5th, 2006, 11:02 pm


Today Did You--

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like today?
uh huh

2. Realize anything new?
i realised that soon i will have a marmite shaped lunchbox and i will laugh to high heaven for no reason.

4. Miss someone?


5. Slept in your bed?
Me and daev

6. Saw you cry?

7. You went to the movies with?
claw of the smoking panda and others

8.you went to the mall with?

9. You said "I love you" to and meant it?

10. Who made you laugh?

11. Said they loved you?

12. Called you in the middle of the night?
no one really

13. Have a crush on anyone?


14. What book are you reading now?
"the rise of the ogre" gorillaz

15. Best feeling in the world?
confidence vs. positive realisation

16. Favorite location?
snowy england

17. piercing/tattoos?

18. What are you most scared of right now?
i dunno what it is anymore

19. Where do you want to get married?
do i even want to get married?

20. What do you really hate?
those simple regrets that you could have simply fixed if only you simply had the guts.

21. Does anyone really hate you?
probably someone out there, theres someone for everyone.

22. Do you like being around people?
most of the time

23. Have you ever cried?

24. Are you lonely right now?
im in a room by myself....urmmmmm...?

25. Song stuck in your head right now?
snowpatty... that new thing out ..you know...the depressing song.

26. Been on radio/TV?

27. Ever liked someone, but you think they never noticed you?
yeah prolly

28. Ever liked someone who treated you like crabcakes?
what put me in the fridge and avoided me at all costs? umm no...

29. How many beds did you lay in yesterday?

30. what color shirt are you wearing right now.

31. Name three things that you do every day?
breathe, minor walking, glass of water for my belly.

32. How much cash do you have right now?
some change

35. Who got you to join myspace?
giles wouldnt shut up about it

36. What did you have for dinner last night?
umm??? turkey thingys? or was that the other day? ... *Long pause* ..... i had- why do you care?

39. What web site do you visit the most?
this one unfortunatly

40. Do you have plants in your room?
nah it got taken away because i wasnt looking after it... like a child.

41. Does anything hurt on your body?

42. Where was your last cab ride?
to town methinks

43. What's your favorite starbucks drink?
never been mate

44. Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex?
couldnt give a flying fuck

Other Question--

45. Do you like someone?

46. Would you keep it a secret?
usually do

48. What happens if he/she knows you like HIM/HER
then they have the knowledge that i like him or her and they can react on it how they please, not that i would bother liking anyone because i never do until i find someone i just love and i have so this question is a bit spointless to me so ill ...umm... stop talking really.

49. How would you tell him/her?
i dont talk first. ever.

50. If she/he rejects you then how would you feel?
plenty more faf in the sink or whatever, not that id be rejected since i dont ask.


outside college, glenn gave us ornages and i eat and then dan give him apple and glenn reject and i give him grape in a cup of water and he love and i am great.

von send off for a marmite lunchbox offa the top of the marmite lids and i get gorillaz new book and i get it signed in london tomorrow and i want to get noodles for dinner abyes.

Wed, Oct. 11th, 2006, 01:53 pm
its the pills...

...it is you know

1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?
i did

2. What are your personality flaws?
insecure and paranoid and stuff

3. What were you doing this morning at 8am?

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
reading a magazine

5. Are you any good at math?
fuck no

6. Your prom night?
was the most special non-existant night ever

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
not that i know or care about

8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
yeah its just one word really "..................." great song, great song.

10. Last thing received in the mail?
bank statement shite

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
one, water

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?
never, unless i have to

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
kings of leon

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
no i add bits to other peoples "giles balls"

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
i dunno but that tooth scrapey hook feels funny and i do hate that mouth hoover for the spit thingy

16. What is out your back door?
the good air

17. Any plans for Friday night?
seeing moo moo daev hopefully

18. Do you like the ocean?
the waters brown, come on in!

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas?
i wish.

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
dunno actually

21. Something you are excited about?
secret shh!

22. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
its jellY you gaye and i hate flavored fat.

23. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
possibly, not that they would know who i am either.

24. Describe your keychain.
small japanese style cat with a flower.

25. Where do you keep your change?
pockets.. please dont mug me

26. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
last year maybe?

27. What kind of winter coat do you have?
big expensive black coat thing all shite like.

28. What was the weather like on your graduation?
what is this shit?

29. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Closed, always closed. ...... or a little bit open for the cat

30. What does your MySpace Name mean?
i am von and i am zilla.

31. Elaborate on your default photo:
im with ant and im making a face blah blah but i cut ant out because hes proper gay like

32. What's your name?
i dunno do i

33. What is your current relationship status?
with daevywoo

34. Honestly, do you have a crush?

35. What is your current mood ?
fooken well hungry

36. What do you love most?
liofe and all its smelly greatness. i guess.

37. What makes you most happy?
this jacket pototoe im waiting to recieve.

38. If you could go back in time, and change something, what?
i dunno. id change the fact that anthony couldnt come to hastings with me i guess.

39. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
cat, squirmy little buggers.

40. Ever have a near death experience?

41. Name one thing you do a lot.

42. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
snowpattyroll - eyes open

43. Who did you cut and paste this from?

44. Name someone with the same b-day as you.
almost - daev, only a day apart...

45. Have you ever been in a fight?

46. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
umm nooooooooooooooooooooooo

47. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
if theyre complete dickheads or not

48. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
the usual

49. Ever had a drunken night?
are you a spastic?

50. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
usually yeah.

Tue, Oct. 10th, 2006, 08:03 pm

i cant decide whether im depressed over daev or the pills so were taking a break (2 days at the least) at first i though that maybe we should brake up because he will never kiss me properly (because he hates it, but now hes started to kiss me) or that hes too scared to show me all of his emotions, i told him that maybe we should brake up and he sat on the stairs and moped then told me that when i was crying and he was making breakfast that the put water in his cereal instead of his tea because he was so concerned about me. finally, some emotion. so yeah were on a brake until i find out whether i want him or not really. if i love him ill buy him his favourite chinese food (aromatic duck) if not then ill have to ask for my stuff back... i think i love him... but you never know....

Sun, Oct. 8th, 2006, 08:27 pm
bens birthday

bens birthday was on the 6th, was cool. his favourite band played at the crypt on his birthday, the gave him a signed poster, brought him a tshirt and a pint and taught him the maccabees secret handshake to use when they next see him. lucky git.
yesterday kensal rise came up with stuart and it was so wicked, we all got pissed and half of us ended up playing cards and half of us were on the stairs (me, stuart, jesse, kane, jamie and josie a bit.) me and stuart had just been chatting shit all fucking night and hitting eachother, he punched me in the boob so i swung both fists into his leg. constantly. was great fun. sam was piiiissed as and everyone was well annoyed with him so ben smeared peanutbutter across his face and zimtim put peanutbutter on a bit of bread and stuck it down his arse crack and took about 20 pictures. in the morning me and daev left and stuart gave us a cuddle and fucking crushed my boob again. bastad lol.
i keep wondering whether daev is the one for me but everytime i come up with something and i explain it to him he changes just for me, he loves meeeee. i was even talking about how i like play fighting so he beat me up a bit lol.. it wasnt a fair fight hes bloody strong lol

Sun, Sep. 24th, 2006, 10:04 pm
daev :(

we went to bens girlfriends party (terri) and i puked and just kinds went to bed for a bit and then daev started puking, as i helped him clean out his bowl thing i talked to josie and giles, they said daev was swinging his dick about .... what the fuck... i was shocked as.. daev was in a deep sleep and i just felt like kicking him. the next morning he was still puking, i ignored him ... we each picked up a conker from rye and just held onto it. as we got on the train daev new something was wrong and i told him id tell him later if he called me or something, so i got off at my stop, went to call my mum for a lift and guess who was tapping me on the shoulder, he said id forgotten my conker and handed it to me, we sat down and i told him what he had done the night before and he just started swearing for about 10 minutes, shocked himself. he apologised and puked. and handed me a teeny, shiny snail shell.. which i lost because it was so small. i waited with him for his next train and hugged him goodbye. i got home and cried like i never have before in my entire life. i called him later to see if he was ok now and i didnt wanna tell him that i loved him when it was time to go so i just felt like he put the phone down on me. reluctant to call him back i did evntually and just cried and told him im so sorry. later i realised that the swinging his cock about was quite funny even if it does still hurt me, like ive just had my lungs punctured. i called him once more later on, hes much better now and has eaten and stuff though he does want a day away from everyone and im seeing ben the day after that so i wont see him for 2 days... makes me wonder. i hope he keeps the conker like im keeping mine. i said id watch the A-team with him (i knew it would make him happy) and tomorrow he will call me on my lunch break and im gonna tell him the reason im insecure with him - its because hes too perfect.. i feel that something must go wrong. i have a problem with good looking guys... they cheat. but daev? weve been through this. i love him. no. im in love with him. just like he is with me.

 i hope.

Thu, Sep. 21st, 2006, 12:10 am

on the 17th daev made an effort to take me to cosmo for our anniversary he loved it, all of it, even the fancy toilets haha. i do adore him. he was telling me so many nice things about me, things that hes told his mate sam like how hes suprised weve lasted this long since his last relationship failed by this time but were still steady and good. were definatly moving out together and he told me that he loves me lots and lots and i told him i do too and how handsome he is still. many other things as well of course ^-^ it was a really nice walk home in the breezy warm night we were both too tired to "finish" the night off but luckily we did that earlier so it was all perfect.

ive been having problems with ben, i havnt been out lately for various reasons and then ive just not been invited out at all. i was walking home from college today with giles and ben called giles but giles was too late to pick up so i let giles call ben on my phone and ben asked giles if he wanted to go to town knowing full well that i was there because he was in my phone, he also asked if giles was home yet so obviously he didnt want me to know that they were going out. and he says hes my best friend? so i mope all day until daev offers to bring me chocolates tomorrow, (hes so sweet now..) but i unleash my anger onto giles over the internet and i still see no positives, ben hates me for no reason, end of. 

tim padwick randomly talked to me today, hopefully we can be friends again.

Tue, Sep. 5th, 2006, 08:37 pm

oops i havnt wrote in this for ages, excuse me if i repeat myself in here. i was about to do this the other day but joe hit me and made me cry.. hes 22 years old for fucks sake.. well at least he apologised this time. yeah i went to the doctors and im even more anemic and they gave me pills but i cant take them because it feels wierd so ew no. dan had a party with us and his family which was cool, everyone sung kareoke and stuff. then kyle had a beach party in bexhill where me, daev, ben and jesse made it a mission to get there and when we were half way there giles rung us up and had moved it even further even though it wasnt his party at all... what a cunt lol. jesse ate a sandwich in tescos and gave ben some lol and jesse was upset when me and daev left because we had been together for 2 days and he didnt get to say goodbye but i did leave him the rest of my drink hehe. i took daev to sallys fancy dress party, took some food and dropped it (and some drink) (oh and we turned up drunk with boxes for costumes ahhahha dave had a crow bar and i found a crutch) i took a whole buncha food and daev took a thingy of pringles, a cock straw and some bubbles.. oh i love him. zak has a new girlfriend and hes drifted away from everyone which is really upsetting.. ben got a new girlfriend, terri. i thought he forgot about me but i was told he misses me too so last time i went round his house i went early and we had a wicked chat, turns out giles loves daev really hehe and slowly daev is beginning to love giles <3 i loves dave more now, i trust him and everything. hes the lovliest ^-^ yesterday daev found a dolls leg on the floor and later at my house i was drinking (in my jammys at the sink) and he put the dolls leg into my undies bum part and i laughed so hard (and was in a bit of shock) the water came out my nose and i said "ive never done that..water just came out of my nose" and i laughed on the floor for a bit until i looked up and he was drinking out of the glass i didnt finish and i continued "and into that cup" he spat it everywhere and i laughed some more but its ok that he drunk my nose juice because earlier he sneezed on my forehead. xxx

Sun, Aug. 13th, 2006, 08:48 pm

it doesnt hurt no more when we... ugh you know. lol. tried some new things.. aanyways.

yeah dans party yesterday was cool, there was kareoke and people sang, we put giles up there, he should of because its his hobby, but he said no... wtf what a diiiick. daev was meant to sing roses by outkast with kyle and another song but we left because i said i was tired which was a total excuse for him lol.

ant was pissed off that i wanted him to leave, i had to go to one party without him and i had plenty more and he wouldnt have gone so whats the point in him staying???

ah well...

What do you check out first when you check someone out?
I generally dont "check out" people, but if I do, I notice every bit. <what josie said What is the least favorite part of your body? veins 3 things you envy from the opposite sex: no periods no baby thingy problems to worry about 1 piece of underwear 3 things you really don't envy from the opposite sex: more likely to rape hairyness missing the toilet if your slightly distracted Which one of the 7 deadly sins do you practice the most? gluttony and sloth When was the last time you made out with a stranger? months ago Are you gonna call him/her? i did, hes a lying fuck head and then i found someone worth my time. Is he/she gonna call you? he did (as above) What kind of drunk are you? i still have logic meaning i dont fuck people i barely know, nor do i rarely even kiss drunk but i am fucking loud. Have you ever had a drug problem? nope If yes, what drug(s)? i havnt How long have you gone without sleeping? 2 days? When was the last time you smoked weed? never What does your hair look like now? loosely tied back, scruffy 3 articles of clothing that will never go out of style: hoodies, braces, trilbys Would you ever have cosmetic surgery? ive never felt that ugly without being able to fix it When was the last time you stole something? a kids, pink, dora the explorer scooter... what? Do you think girls deserve more respect just cause they are girls? hah yes What is your favorite night to go out? depends whats even happening Do you wanna be rich and/or famous? famous would be nice Who is your hero/role model? none Whats the most grotesque part of the human body? bum hole Have you ever found it fun to sniff on your dirty underwear? fun? haha ew Do you pee in the shower? if i cant dry myself in time.... Why do men get skid marks? do they? why the fuck dont they wipe theyre arses?! If you are a man, have you ever tucked your weenie and looked at it in the mirror? what self-respecting man hasnt? When was your last queef? queef?? is that a fart or .. i dunno... Have you ever been to an orgy? no 3 way? no How do you know the person who posted this? josie. yes i do. we are lovers. What nationality would you preffer the mother/father of your children to be? who cares What would you name your kids? ??? Name 3 things you cant stand from people: being blatantly rude bragging, whether to your face or subtly bossy twats

Tue, Jul. 25th, 2006, 08:46 pm
sanny :(

i wake up yesterday, take two steps out of my bed and i lose about 3 handfuls of blood and almost fainted. i mean ew. why? i dislike yu immensly anemia. i really do. so i layed on the floor for a bit, i was about to faint. i dont mind the sight of blood i dunno why i was gonna faint really. probably because i lost so much of it (must wash carpet properly before daev comes over again....) meh whatever

i slept at daevs yesterday he made me watch elvis movies. clam bake? fuck off. i start getting pissy because he squeezed my belly 3 times and it hurt like fuck. so im miserable and just want a hug and hes off for 4 hours doing fuck knows and im sitting in his room doing fuck all growing sadder and sadder. i go downstairs at one point to say hello and he just starts pissing with his game so i go back upstairs. later he comes back up (to play a different game then starts hugging me and stuff and trying to make me laugh the last thing he was saying was "i wanna put cream on you.." but thats all i caught and by this time i just wanted to cry because i was so aggitated so i grabbed him and unloaded on him.. poor bugger... he was left there going "its ok.. i wont really put cream on you..." haha he thought it was because of that awwwwwwwwwww i told him i just needed a hug (not that i was bored as shit.) called my mum to pick me up and "accidently" took his shirt that i was wearing (i wanted it, it smells of him lol) and he gave me his braclet again and another purple hairband but i told him id give it back because he really liked that one. yeah so in the end he hugged me (while listening to my heart for some reason) and it got better.

so i got home and cried but once again mum and joe couldnt leave me the FUCK ALONE. so i just ate my sadness away with crisps and chocolate. gonna take a bath now you wankers. i gotta stop crying for no reason it is pure bollocks.

"lovevonmeowwoofdaev. "Aw, Crivens." i wipe my arse on puppies. says:
lovevonmeowwoofdaev. "Aw, Crivens." i wipe my arse on puppies. says:
lovedaevmeowwoofvon says:
lovevonmeowwoofdaev. "Aw, Crivens." i wipe my arse on puppies. says:
lovedaevmeowwoofvon says:
lovedaevmeowwoofvon says:

Fri, Jul. 21st, 2006, 07:37 pm

its all gravy now. we was walking home and i got grumpy and we talked and he just came out with "why do you think im cheating?" which he said by himself so i honestly dont think a liar would try to open the subject for fear of dropping themselves in the shit but then again he could be really sneaky then again no. not squiddums. so all the "guilt presents" or what i called them are actually real presents for helping him when hes poor a.k.a. my choice of toy (space monkey from bear factory) and a bike for me (chopper!) so i love him MANY! and he said to me things like "Ive never even thought about cheating to be honest" and "when would i have ever had time to?" and i asked him if he cheaed would he tell me? he said "well i wouldnt cheat but i suppose if i did i would because id feel guilty" (but he paused in between to think... which worries me)so that foils my paranoia :D

AND he has decided after much T.V. that he finally wants compenstation for the brick on the head and the beatings in the park. DUH FREE MONEH. he said before that he doesnt like it and would rather earn it like a good honest gay but hes finally come round!!!!! MONEH! (if we win lolz)

plus at ur new cooch (hangout) A NEW PARK! daev went down a slopey thing (well over it) flew on his front wheel for about 10 feet then fell sidewards onto the floor and got a handlebar mark in his chest with the letters from his handlebar clearly stamped onto him through his tshirt. and someother injuries and some swelling. lol.

My Suggestions On Daevs Future Career:

"be a fire-fighter-man! a fire-man! a fire-fighter-man! he fights fires, hes a man! a fire-man! be a fire fighter man!"

Daev: "Thats not words thats a theme song..."

"be a fire-man!"

On The New Andrex Toilet Paper With Puppies Printed On The Paper:

"look now you can wipe your arse on puppies!!!"

Daev: "i already do."

(much laughter)

... Later in the conversation.....

"....hey, that means your arse would smell of dog.."

Daev: "..and your dog would smell of arse.."

Sympathy Is What I Do Best:

Daev: "moan moan moan something about something thats probably about not enough man sex"

"awwwww squiddums"

Daev: "squiddums?!"

"yeah.. Sea-Diddums... Squiddums...like a squid.."

".....your so surreal.........................actually i quite like "squiddums"..."

daev burst out laughing today and i couldnt figure out what was until i looked on the computer at what he was looking at.. it was what i posted yesterday when he wasnt looking:

"now that its hot and you should all have fans, talk into your fan. what youve never done that?! it makes you sound like a robot!!!!!"

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